Today was a hard day. We decided to start Sweet Pea one day a week (not even a full day) at our church’s preschool. This decision was made mainly because I have been having a hard time lately and Sweet Pea and I were both going a little stir crazy spending all day every day at home. I thought I would be jumping for joy when the day came I could send little Sweet Pea away for a few hours and get some time to myself. It’s what every stay at home mom wants, right?

I didn’t like the feeling that leaving him gave me and I know he had a hard time with it also. My head tells me that he will be okay. I know the director of the school and I trust her and the people she hires. But my heart is leading me in another direction. It is such an inner struggle because I know that I will be a better mother and wife having a few hours to myself every week. I still have the other 163 hours of the week to enjoy him. Even knowing this I still struggle with what to do. I guess I will give it a few more weeks and then decide if it is a good fit for us.

On a cuter note, here are some pictures of Sweet Pea on his first official day of school. Overall, I think he had a good time. The teacher said it didn’t take to long for him to calm down after I left. Once he got used to his surroundings he laughed and played the rest of the morning. It also helped calm my nerves knowing that my friend, the director of the school, checked on him every now and then and called me to let me know how he was doing.

He had to take a lunch so here is his very first packed school lunch:

Here he is carrying his lunch box around the house:

Here he is checking out his classroom and the other kids:

Here he is sitting at is place at the table: